Its been months since the last time I have visited my blog. The busyness of work and daily life activities devour me already. I guess the life of a nurse is more on hospital/clinic then sleep, and the only thing that awakens our sleepy eyes is a cup of coffee. So, whats up?
I just went through my blog and I read about my "seven days blogging challenge". Haha! Sa tingin ko dapat ko nang palitan ang title ng write up ko na yun and change it to " forever blog challenge". And speaking of forever, may forever ka na ba? Ano na ang status ng relationship mo sa boyfriend/ex-boyfriend mo? Madami na bang hugot na nakakarelate kay Angelica Panganiban sa Banana Split? O kasing tibay pa din ng bato and road going to marriage?
Well then, Congratulations kung road to forever na yan. At kung ang result ay biak na bato ang relationship niyo. Huwag nang bitter, humugot na lang tayo. Hindi lang sa pond nakakahuli ng isda, there still a big fish in the ocean. Kaya wag ilagay ang sarili sa aquarium lang, may masdeep pa diyan.
The truth is, status quo. I just let things happen between us. Though we're not okay and the relationship is hanging at the moment, hindi ko masasabi na "break na kami or kami pa". Sabi nila kapag may communication pa, may pag-asa pang bumalik. Siguro may mga considerations na mangyayari once na nagkita at nagusap kami in person. As of now, I am waiting at ganun din siya
( hoping). And there are alot of things to tell. Stories from the past, present and kung sakaling may future pa.
Sa ngayon, the relationship i want to build is intimate relationship with Christ. Madami akong lessons na natutunan at na-realize sa pagdaan ng mga araw na complicated ang relationship ko sa kanya. Na as human, we owe everything to Holy God, even our bf/gf or ex's. God allow the wrong person to come and go in our life so that we can discern the right person for us. God knows our needs, even our deepest desire, so kung ibibigay niya sayo yung kasalukuyan mong karelasyon ngayun, He will always make a way para humarap kayo parehas sa altar. At kung sakali man na hindi siya, don't lose hope. Pray persistently and be specific sa prayers mo regarding sa future wife/husband mo.
Sa tagal ko nang complicated, narealize ko na namiss ko ang maraming panahon na sana noon pa ako nagkaroon ng ugnayan kay Christ. Na sa lahat ng relationship status na alam ko, ang pinaka-top and priority status pala ay ang relasyon mo kay Lord. Yong unfailing, unconditional love at yung faithfulness ay sa Kanya mo lang talaga mahahanap. Kaya din siguro hindi ako bitter sa kung anuman ang kalalagayan ng aking relationship ngayon kasi alam ko na kapag na-fall at na-fail ako, may God na sasalo sa akin at ipapasa ako sa struggles ko sa aking relationship.
At sa mga taken na at talagang natagpuan ang kanilang forever, wala nang mas-sasaya pa sa isang samahan na si Christ ang sentro.
And my status, I am not single, not taken but only reserve for someone who deserves my heart. And I believe that good things happen for those who patiently wait and pray unceasingly and carefully, following the design of God.
-Kimmy-
